The Tears of Deeksha

Today, I had an incredible experience. I met with my Power Team that meets monthly. We are a team of people brought together by a common experience: an Anthony Robbins event. We are a group of go-getters, do-gooders, and everything in between. We met today to experience deeksha (blessing) facilitated by members of the Oneness Movement.

There was about 40 people in a relatively small room. We sat on the floor, on mats, on furniture, any place that we could find. I knew that I was going that my back was going to get tired either way, so I chose to sit on the furniture for at least my legs would be okay.

The session began with a little background on deeksha and the Oneness University. We watched about 15 minutes of a video program that was presented by a journalist and ended with a message from Lindsay Wagner. She shared the effect of deeksha in her life. It was simple, yet profound. She was transformed to 'see' again and found new appreciation in her familiar surroundings.

We began our process of receiving deeksha by closing our eyes, focusing on our breath and the opening ourselves to the divine power (God, Buddha, Christ, Supreme Being, etc.) There was soft, beautiful music in the background. We were just to remain open to our divine power and breathe. Each facilitator would come around the round and bless the participants by placing their hands on our heads.

I closed my eyes and opened myself up to God. I breathed and worked to focus only on my breath as my mind is always racing. I found that as I tried to concentrate, my thoughts would turn to the facilitators walking about the room. I knew that trust and removal of resistance were available to keep me from fully experiencing the process. There was not much sound so I didn't know what to expect. I began to get nervous when I realized that there was someone next to me receiving the blessing. "Uh oh, stay calm, don't shake...wait, quiet your mind, focus on your breath, don't worry about them..." This is the kind of torture that I was placing on myself before I had my first experience. Then, it happened. The person moved nearer to me. I could sense them and the lighting changed in front of my eyes. I began to breathe more conscientiously. I began to relax and then, I felt warm hands on my head. It was amazing. The heat penetrated my scalp and began to coat my body. The image in my mind began to change. I didn't see much except organic shapes. I was able to relax and focus. This lasted for about 30 seconds before the person gently removed their hands.

I experienced 3 more people laying their hands on me. Each person had a unique touch which resulted in a unique experience.

We ended the first session by sharing some personal experiences. Some people had some amazing occurrences, others had something more ordinary. I was pleased that I was soon able to quiet myself and relax into myself.

What I noticed was that I had little expectation for the outcome which left me happy in the fact that I was able to enjoy the quiet. I also realized that it felt as if my soul had peeled away from my internal body. It was as if I was swirling around inside myself.

We took a short break and began again. This time, we were to receive an experience of gratitude. I just kept picturing moments with my nieces. It caused me to smile. They always bring the most joyous moments in my life. I was now eager to receive new "hands". This time, I was relaxed and calm immediately.

I received a deeksha where the person touched my head and then moved to my face. It made me smile. That touch provokes such love in my heart. The next person actually touched my heart first and provided such a rush that I began to cry. I wasn't sure if it was due to joy or sadness. I had one single tear trickle down my face. It was powerful. I felt more open than before. I was calm. I was present. A dog began to bark. Normally, I would have wanted to dog to be quiet so that I could concentrate. This time, I just was able to 'be' with the dog barking and still stay focused. It was a new moment of experience for me. Wonderful!

So, I found out that there is deeksha each Friday in my city. I am excited to be able to continue the work to provide more moments of peace within myself. I look forward to developing more knowledge with deeksha and spending time with the wonderful facilitators.