just a girl with God-sized dreams

I am sitting here at my office, enjoying a snack of Trader Joe's lowfat Honey Whole Wheat Pretzels and Reduced Fat PB. Can I share that I enjoy Reduced Fat PB over regular, not because of the reduced fat content but because of the increased SUGAR content!

This is my first entry and most definitely not my last. You know, it's just crappy when you see so many blogs started and not updated regularly. Well, I am one of those crappy people. LOL I had another location where I kept my thoughts, ideas and woes and cannot remember the password. (I didn't update the site for about 8 months!) Well, this is a sign for a fresh start. I hope to use this as a mind 'dump'. So many wonderfully crazy things (take that as you wish) stream through my mind all day. I hope rid myself of some of those nagging things and share the most wonderful things.

Well, here are a couple of fun facts about me:

*I am a lifetime member of WW who has lost 85 lbs. This has been one of my greatest accomplishments to date. I love to work out, but allow lack of time to keep me from doing more of it. I love to play softball and stay active. I have put back 20 pounds of what I've lost and am working to get back to my personal goal.

*I just earned brand new car from Mary Kay. I love my business. It is so much fun and has offered me a new look at my life. I didn't realize how many things that I needed to work on! LOL I love to teach other women how to apply makeup. I've found that many more women would wear makeup, but do not feel comfortable with their skills of application. I love seeing women change this and feel better about how they look. Shallow? I don't feel so.

*I am an aunt to 2 beautiful girls (14 and 2 1/2). I have no children myself and am not in a rush to have any. I like my freedom a lot and don't see myself being willing to give it up quite yet.

*I work for the government and cannot wait to change this not-so-fun fact about me. My goal is to be out of here by April 2006.

Let's go back to weight loss for a second. Achieving weight loss success is such a pivotal marker in my life. I didn't know that when I started the journey to lose that I would sit here 5 years later and realize what achieving that goal has done for my life. Yes, I am healthier and feel that I look better, but I am such a different person that the woman that walked into that first WW meeting on Wednesday, September 13th, 2000. I realize that taking on a goal of such caliber and completing it is such an empowering, life-altering experience. I am a better, more driven person because of it. All of my weight loss tools had flooded themselves into other parts of my life. I think that every person needs to have such a life-altering experience so that they know that it is worth the energy, effort, passion and sleepless moments to take on a goal bigger than their comprehension and previous attempts. I say previous attempts because according to my track record, I would have failed again. If I had not tried again, I would not have had this opportunity to succeed. Look at all that I would have missed!

I think that the reward one of the best rewards of completing a goal is not the actual goal itself, but all the work and passion that it represents. My future looks brighter when I look at my past...


So, that is why I say that I am "just a girl with big dreams."